| New Single |
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I heard that dir en grey has a new single out. Anyone know what it's called and where I can download it? I'm also looking for the clever slezoid single as well. Any help would definetely be appreciated. |
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| alsdjf;lkasdg;kejrbtg;ejb;dsann |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|11:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Static X - Destroy All | ] |
:) Had fun today at the mall. Sadly, there wasn't alot of people there, though. I know what your all thinking. "Jesse, your a sad pathetic loser. You shouldn't waste your time at the mall. Well, seeing as friday is pretty much my only free day of the week, it tends to work out this way for the better. Anyways after that I went and played pool at cones & cues with ben, nicole, my sis, and joey. Good times. Kinda sucks though because I think I'm actually getting worse at pool. ARGH!
Here's some random goofy pics of me to cheer up your day!
I kinda look scary in the last one... |
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| Stress kills |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|07:58 pm] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Reggie and the Full Effect - Apocolypse WOW | ] |
Ummmm.... so, yeah. College is really stressful this semmester. When I signed up for classes, I figured that the "one class a week" for two of my classes was a good deal. I couldn't have been more wrong. I may not be going to school as often, but the workload is almost impossible. I have 12 assignments in one class each totaling at least 15 minutes a peace. THAT'S JUST ONE CLASS!
So far, I've also been kind of pissed because I've had no luck finding a job lately. This of course adds to the stress which has been quickly accumulating in my brain. Well, a balloon can only take so much air before it explodes. How much more will my brain be able to take? We shall see...
(If my brain does manage to explode, feel free to take photos XD)
P.S. Anyone free this weekend? I haven't seen some of you guys in a while. If not, at least try to show up at the mall on friday so I can carry out my torcherous plans. Muahahahahahaha! *Ahem* Seriously though. If your free, give me a call or leave a comment or something!!!
ummmm... the end. |
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|11:22 pm] |
Wow, it's been months since I last updated. I feel really out of it. College has drained me of what little energy I had left. Trying to balance my girlfriend, my friends, and school is alot harder than I expected. I think I've reached that point in my life where all my friends are slowly gonna drift away. I try to avoid thinking about it, because it makes me feel more depressed. Oh well, guess I'll suck it in and get over it.
Well, one good thing happened recently. I FINALLY GOT A CAR! It's a 94 Cougar.
Also, It's Me and Kayla's One year anniversary! HIP HIP HURRAY! I really miss her, hopefully I'll find a way to go and see her.
That's All Folks! |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2005|04:15 am] |
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Is the world fucked up or is it just me? |
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| Fuck Monroe |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|12:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mudvayne -1 | ] |
Mudvayne "-1"
Losses, losers and more, gain of life’s pleasures cohorts listen behind the doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls falling down pains aloft misery
I’m sure that the lessons were learned I’m sure that the punishments went well deserved by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness walk from me everything systematically
Come on youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I’m supposed to be
Tell me who I’m supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun I’m bored in a life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is loss look at me I’m sure that some day
Wake up I’m sure that some day we’ll wake from the dream
Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of me your taunting I wake up
Come on youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I’m supposed to be
Tell me who I’m supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Tell me now!
Tell me now!
Pain misery distress dismal know where depressed idiot failure
In me......calling......loser......man I’m the
Loser......loser.....loser......in me......who I am....in me....
Don’t feel sorry don’t feel sorry for me
Don’t need your sympathy or empathy, don’t need your sympathy inside of me,
Don’t need your sympathy or empathy, don’t need your sympathy inside of me,
Don’t feel sorry don’t feel sorry for me
Come on
I know youweretheone youweretheone
Numb to feelings inside of me why I’ve seized my vision
Don’t need you to tell me who to be
Don’t need you to tell me what to be
Don’t need you to tell me how to ascend
Don’t need you to tell me how to live |
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| Life can't get much lower |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|06:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tool - Schism | ] |
Today, at 10 o clock this morning we got a call that my grandma passed away. Can life possibly get much lower than this? Words cannot express what I'm feeling right now. I wish I could cry, but I'm too emotionally fucked up right now.
What doesn't kill you, only makes you crave death that much more... |
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| Just Breathe |
[Jun. 3rd, 2005|05:48 pm] |
Your eyes have been ripped from your soul
Tattered and torn, you wander aimlessly
Pressure and despair are your weakness
Blind, you stumble to the ground
Just Breathe
Lying across the cold, dead floor
The left hand holds time
The right hand holds the key
Fate is a fools dream
Just Breathe
Stripped of all thought
The Count down has begun
Why are you here?
Where do you go?
The wind rushes past you...
One final breath |
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| The time we've all been dreading... |
[May. 19th, 2005|07:30 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
Well, for all of you who don't know, Chris and Mo are moving to Florida today(tomorrow for me because it's 7:30am and im still awake!). They are leaving and have no intentions of coming back. It's a very sad day for all of us. Oh well, at least Chris got to win 2 bucks of me in a poker hand.
Anyways, it has begun. First Chris and Mo. Next will probably be Rery. After that, who the fuck knows. Once one person leaves, it starts off a never ending chain reaction until everyone is gone. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I expected everyone to stay in this shithole forever, I was just hoping it would last longer than this. Oh well..... I guess. I've survived without friends before. It's not like it's gonna kill me. :(
FAREWELL CHRIS AND MO. I HOPE YOU ENJOY LIVING IN FLORIDA AND I WISH YOU BOTH THE BEST OF LUCK! WE'LL MISS YOU GUYS!
Oh yeah. If you want to say goodbye to them, be at the mall today. Peace. |
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| Party night! |
[May. 13th, 2005|02:46 pm] |
Damn. So far I've had alot of fun. I still haven't went to bed yet....
It all started off by going to the mall. I bought some new video games and hung out with some friends. Then, Steele and Boonie came over and hung out for a bit then we went straight to nick's house to play pool and cards until 7 in the morning, when we finally got kicked out of the house by Nick's mom and dad. While we were there, Mo gave Boonie a wakeup call by throwing flour at his face. LMAO is was awesome! So, me, bridget, mo, boonie, joel, and steele had to book it. After that, we decided to go to Monroe High to see what's up with some of our friends then head straight over to meijers for no reason. After that, we came back to my house to play video games and magic the gathering. Then, Mo conned mcdonald's and arby's into giving us free food. Now we're gonna be heading up to the mall. Talk about a fun time. w00t! |
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| A QUESTION!!! |
[May. 9th, 2005|05:44 am] |
Well....I'm back from Indiana once again. w00t! Hmmmmmm.... Lately I've felt disconnected from everything. Dunno why.
Damn I'm bored. I really need to get a life, a job especially.
Anyways here's a question. If you could do anything in the world, what would it be?
DON'T FEAR THE REAPER
BLUE OYSTER CULT
All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain..we can be like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
Baby take my hand...don't fear the reaper
We'll be able to fly...don't fear the reaper
Baby I'm your man...
Valentine is done
Here but now they're gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity...Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday......Like Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday......Redefine happiness
Another 40,000 coming everyday......We can be like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
Baby take my hand...don't fear the reaper
We'll be able to fly...don't fear the reaper
Baby I'm your man
Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared...saying don't be afraid
Come on baby...and she had no fear
And she ran to him...then they started to fly
They looked backward and said goodbye...she had become like they are
She had taken his hand...she had become like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper |
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| Life is confusing |
[May. 6th, 2005|06:47 am] |
Well, I'm going to be gone for the next few days. Going to Indiana for a few days for some time of relaxation and hopefully not boredom. Oh well, either way I'll at least be able to spend some more time with Kayla.
Anyways, last night I hung out with a billion different people at Denny's and then Chris' house.... FUN FUN! Lately I've been playing lots of card games and getting really good. All you fellow card players, watch out if ya know what's good for you... :)
(this next part you don't have to read and probably won't cuz it's just some of the random stuff that goes through my head)
It seems like over the last year, everything in my life is finally coming together. Everything has been going so good recently. For one of first times in my life, I can actually sleep pretty good at night. Everything just feels like a paradise. And if your wondering, no I'm not high or drunk on anything. I know what you all are thinking. If everything is going so great then what the hell is your problem!?!? Well, lately I've been having this constant paranoia that everything is just gonna come crashing down. If that happens, It will seem like all those problems in my life that I tried so hard to fix would have been for nothing.
I'm also dreading the future alot. Having to deal with college, watching all my friends move away or go on to different things. I dunno. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I should shut the fuck up now.
Anyways, take care all. Cya in a few days. |
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| Club rub-a-dub dub |
[Apr. 26th, 2005|04:04 am] |
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Just got back from denny's and the club. Damn, that shit was bumpin. I haven't had this much fun in a long, long time. Next time I'm bringin my digital camera so I can't take a bunch of pics. The club was definetely an experience. First time I ever raved before. Fun shit. |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2005|05:12 am] |
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Going to Indiana. See everyone in a few days. Peace |
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| Happy Dappy Lappy |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|07:34 am] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | G.D.S. by Dir en Grey (one of the best techno songs ever!!!) | ] |
Wow, I haven't been this happy in so long it's not even funny. Well, as most of you know I've been having problems with my ears for who knows how long. The problems have been so bad I've been depressed for along time because of it. Here are the problems I've been having...
1. Tinnitus(severe ringing/whistling in the affected ear(s))
2. Hearing loss
3. pressure
If any of you guys have ever had this shit before, than you know what I mean. It's fucking hell or at least it was for me. I went and seen a specialist the other day and he prescribed me some medicine to get rid of this hell. I only just started taking it yesterday and it's worked better than anything else I've ever takin. The only thing that's wrong though is a few side effects here and there like insomnia. Oh well, it's worth it. It's such a great feeling when your in the backseat of a friends car and you can hear the conversation going on in the front. THANK YOU GOD! Without you, none of this would have been possible.
Well now that I'm done with this emo drama, I can get on to other news. Pretty soon here, I should be hittin up the clubs. w00t for me! Tonight or Last night (whatever) was fun as hell. Hung out as Denny's with Big Nick, Jesse, Chris, Sister, Brittany & Brittany, Nate, Shane, Joel and others. Stayed there til almost 4 playin cards, eatin and generally having a good time. Earlier, I hung out with Kayla watching movies and stuff. Always fun. w00t! Love you Kayla!
Well, that's about it. Cheers to one of the best days of my life! w00t! Later. |
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| My Birthday Party Pics... w00t! |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|05:40 am] |
Here's some pics from my kickass birthday party. Man, It was a blast. w00t!
Extreme laziness... Need I say more?
Wow, that's interesting.....
EVIL SHANE... EVIL I TELL YOU!!!
Tom, the anxious video gamer.
A comfy threesome, composed of Ben, Bubbles, and Lee.
Crazy Jimbo Love.
The crazy Bubblie person.
My Beautiful Kayla is missing... Can anyone find her!? (Love you honey!)
Interesting. Boonie looks "different" in this pic. Hmmmm.
An Old Friend... GIVE ME MY PIZZA NOW!!!
Brandon just looking as exciting as ever. LOL.
Jesse sure loves his PIZZA.
Mo and his girl.
A pizza bunny? Your crazy as hell Rery.
My sister, Bambi.
My brother-in-law, Billy.
BEN HATES YOU ALL! Muahahahahahaha!
Steve is now in deep meditation although I had no idea that it involved snoring... LOL
Hello Lee. Goodbye Lee.
mmmmmmmm tastes good.
Jimbo in da tub.
Brandon and Yoga... Interesting combo.
Bridget is drooling all over herself. It's ok, we'll get you help.
I think Rery has A.D.D.
That's all for now folks. Later. |
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| New pics! |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|05:36 am] |
Here's some new pics I took today at the mall with my digital camera. w00t!
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| Muahahahahaha! |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|10:47 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | My Chemical Romance - Helena | ] |
Well, let's see here. Today I was up at the mall with Kayla chillin with a bunch of friends. Fun stuff. I FINALLY GOT TO SEE SIN CITY!!! That movie rocks off my socks. Probably one of my new favorite movie. Great dialogue and a dark storyline and plot.
It's hard to believe that in only one hour, I will be turning 20 years old. Geez, I feel really old. I know that I certainly don't look or act like it... ARGH!
Hopefully by friday, I'll have all of the details up for my party so in case I don't see you, this is where you can find it all out.
Later.
My Chemical Romance - Helena
Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight |
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